Those Unheard...

I was on my bed thinking deeply of performing a duty which I was assigned to do.
Each time,I think of it,my heart becomes heavy that tears escape from my eyes even without my knowledge.At that moment,I feel myself entering into a "coma" state.Coz' for a long time,I wont have the power to control myself.I feel that brain is not noticing the tears shed by heart.
I keep on utterning "his"name,keep on recalling those words which he frequently spoke...But...It takes for me and my conscious mind to realize that he is not at all mine...
Still...some power from inside,asks me not to believe the truth..
It tells me, that the actual truth is yet hidden and what I see presently is totally untrue..
Me alone was responsible for things to go "this much" worse..

If I heard my heart...??

I know, he would have been mine...

Mistake

It was my fault...
Didn't even think of it twice...
A barrier to my dreams,
That is all I thought...

But...
Made to break the soul,
And make all the fact fiction,
That alone was its purpose...

I am jailed..
And all my dreams were burnt
Not even a spark remains..
just to keep as a relic...

Was it I???
Who flies the kite of dreams??
Ya..,A falcon behind the clouds
Who never came back....

Unnoticed...

You gave me nothing which I asked for...
which I pleeded for...
which I wished for....
But instead...
No!!!!
I dont wat to remember anything...
My broken heart is sewn now...
By somebody else...
Who tends to love me
Who tends to care for me..
and to understand me...
But stilll...
You were the one whom I thought was "mine"...
I was totally wrong...
You didnt even understand me a bit...
And now..
My heart grieves to say you....

I am sorry....Sorry for everything......

Vanity Dreams

The murmering sound of rain did,
kiss my ears like sharing a secret,
The soft breeze invaded my heart
And I was shivering with cold...
But I....
Inspite of all these thorns,
Went underneath the warmthness
of the cozy bed...
It was certainly known to me
That all were just like mermaid's dream..
But I,
felt so distressed to wake up from that world...
Those unheard voices were so clear,
That I could feel even the warmthness of breath,
A fact did lie in between all these thoughts
i didnt want to miss my dream
Just to fly behind like a falcon..
Was my long cherished desire..
To overcome my solitude
To hope for a better tomorrow
And..
In the light of darkness
To hold my hand,
I needed a better half
Still knowing everything were just Vanity...