Those Unheard...

I was on my bed thinking deeply of performing a duty which I was assigned to do.
Each time,I think of it,my heart becomes heavy that tears escape from my eyes even without my knowledge.At that moment,I feel myself entering into a "coma" state.Coz' for a long time,I wont have the power to control myself.I feel that brain is not noticing the tears shed by heart.
I keep on utterning "his"name,keep on recalling those words which he frequently spoke...But...It takes for me and my conscious mind to realize that he is not at all mine...
Still...some power from inside,asks me not to believe the truth..
It tells me, that the actual truth is yet hidden and what I see presently is totally untrue..
Me alone was responsible for things to go "this much" worse..

If I heard my heart...??

I know, he would have been mine...